Doldrums
Monday, January 29th, 2007I’m sorry for the relative quiet. I have nothing much to say at the moment, except for maybe ‘ugh’, or ‘pff’.
It’s difficult to understand how a person could get cabin fever in a place with skies as vast as they are in Namibia, but at the moment I just feel trapped. It’s impossible to lose yourself in this place - it’s just too bloody small. I find this distressing, and have mentally started to pace up and down my cage.
Work is a nightmare - we have no money, because none of our donors for this year have as yet been able to make the disbursements that will enable us to cover our January expenses. Thus, we cannot pay our salaries, and it looks as if our phone and internet will be cut off until we get some money in mid-February. They all seem vastly unconcerned by this, suggesting that we use the contract to try and secure an overdraft. I’m sure that they are unaware of the administrative nightmare that this would unleash, not to mention the enormous costs. I can’t help but feel that if my boss had not spent every penny of extra money on something that wasn’t even in the budget, we wouldn’t be in this situation. I expect he feels that if I’d managed to raise a bit more money last year, then this wouldn’t be happening. Hence ‘ugh’.
I won’t delve into my personal life, as that way madness lies. And the possibility of medication. Hence ‘pff’.
So, I may be a little quiet for a while. But don’t go away. I’m sure I will be back soon, with my sense of humour firmly stitched up and ready for action. Meanwhile, you could browse my back catalogue of erudite and amusing posts, if you can bear to.
Also coming soon:Â pictures of moths.
